I found this, and you can download the .pdf at www.lavendaire.com
This is supposed to be a thirty-day journey of self-discovery, but I tend to lose focus (and motivation), so I broke this down into five days. On each of the days thus far I have answered six of the questions. You can see the answers for the previous four posts by clicking on the day of the week.
This has been a fun and enlightening journey, and I would love for you to take this journey as well.
Day one: Monday
- How do I feel at the moment?
- What do I need more of in my life?
- What would make me happy right now?
- What is going right in my life?
- What am I grateful for? List at least 10 things.
- When did I experience joy this week?
Day two: Tuesday
- List all my small victories and successes.
- What’s bothering me? Why?
- What are my priorities at the moment?
- What do I love about myself?
- Who means the world to me and why?
- If I could share one message with the world, what would it be?
Day three: Wednesday
- What advice would I give to my younger self? (Do I follow this advice now?)
- What lesson did I learn this week?
- If I had all the time in the world, what would I want to do first?
- What’s draining my energy? What can I do to reduce or cut it out?
- What does my ideal morning look like?
- What does my ideal day look like?
Day four: Thursday
- What makes me come alive? When was the last time I felt truly alive?
- Who/What inspires me the most? Why am I drawn to those inspirations?
- Where does my pain originate? What would need to happen for me to heal?
- What are my strengths? What am I really good at?
- What is something I’ve always wanted to do but was too scared?
- What is something I would love to learn?
Day five: Saturday
- What hobbies would I like to try?
I don’t know, really. I’m always up for trying something new. So if you have any hobbies that you particularly enjoy feel free to tell me about them. My next new hobby may be something I don’t even know about.
- Where would I want to live in my ideal life?
I know that would not want to live in a big city. I was raised in St. Louis, Missouri, and I couldn’t image living anywhere else. That is until I left St. Louis. I’ve lived in Paducah, Kentucky since January of 2001, and I wouldn’t move back to a big city for anything.
My ideal life would be in a small city or town much like Paducah. Although, my husband and I fell in love with North Platte, Nebraska when we went there for a visit a couple of years ago.
We loved that it was a small city, much like Paducah. It was in a beautiful area of the country, near the edge of the plains region of the United States, surrounded by open areas and farmland. On the highway through Nebraska we would look out the windows of the car and could see for miles and miles. There was no large buildings or smog to mar the view of the sunset.
The city of North Platte was built by the railroad industry. Much of the city works for Bailey Yard, which is the world’s largest freight rail yard and is operated by Union Pacific. Railfans come from all over the country to visit the Golden Spike Tower and Visitors Center, so the permanent residents of the North Platte are used to tourists. In all other cities that I’ve visited, the permanent residents have been a bit jaded and not too welcoming to out-of-towners. Yet the residents of North Platte the we encountered were warm and welcoming. The city itself is rich in heritage, which it celebrates and puts on display in its many parks and historic events.
North Platte is just a few hours east of where my sister lives in Colorado, and about nine hours west of St. Louis, where my family still lives. More than anything, though, it was how open and unobstructed the city was. Farmland and fields as far as the eye could see all the way across the state (once you get past Omaha). I felt like I could stretch my arms out as far as the east is from the west and still not touch anything. I felt like I could take the first deep breath of newborn life. I could close my eyes and hear no highway traffic, people yelling, or other ambient noises that come with life in a large city. I could sit outside at night and see more stars in one night than I had seen in all the collective years of my life.
My ideal life doesn’t have to be in North Platte, Nebraska. North Platte is simply where I discovered what kind of place makes me happiest, where I feel most comfortable and at home, and it’s in a place such as that where my ideal life would take place.
- Where would I like to travel in the next 5 years?
I would love to travel to Colorado. That is where my sister and niece live. I’ve never been to Colorado, and want to not only visit with my family, but I want to stand in the shadow of the Rocky Mountains. I want to see the sunrise and sunset on the mountain range. I want to breathe in the clean, clear air. I want to see snow-capped mountain peaks, and see railroad tunnels that have been carved into mountain sides. I want to visit the Continental Divide. I want to sit outside on their back porch in the middle of the night, no other person around for miles, and feel like the only person in the world.
- What can I do to take better care of myself?
Where do I begin on this one?
I need to quit smoking. I need to eat better, and exercise more. I need to do all the stuff that everyone tells you leads to a happier and more healthy life.
All those things may lead to a healthier life, but I am here to tell you that those things do not ensure a happier life. Right now I have all I need to take great care of myself. I have a roof over my head. I have food on my table. I have a job that pays for my basic living needs and allows me and my family extra money for not just the “needs” but also the “wants.” I have friends and family that love me and that I love.
People always think that taking better care of yourself means only taking care of yourself physically. But you also have to take care of yourself mentally and emotionally. I am blessed to be surrounded by more than my fair share of people who care for me, and God always provides the things I truly need in life. I would say that right now I am pretty well taken care of.
- When have I done something that I thought I couldn’t do?
I used to live in fear of trying anything new. After all, what if I didn’t know how to do whatever it was that I was trying to do? What if I completely screwed up? What if was an epic failure? I would find reasons to convince myself that I was bad at something before I even tried to do it. I had absolutely no confidence in myself.
Over time, though, I have come to realize that living life in a comfortable bubble of fear not only kept me from embarrassing myself or failing at anything, but it also kept me from living life. How would I learn what I love to do, how would I learn what I am good at, how would I be able to look back on my life and say that I lived if I didn’t step out of my comfort zone?
I said for as long as I could remember that I wanted to write and publish a novel. A couple of years ago I discovered that anyone can do just that through Amazon’s Kindle Direct Publishing. So I wrote a (very bad) novel and published it on Amazon. It sold several copies and got some nice (and not-so-nice) reviews. The book is no longer listed on Amazon because I took it down. I wrote my book, I published it and put myself out there to be critiqued for my writing. I was terrified the day I clicked “publish” and my book went live on Amazon. But I did it. I wrote a book and became a published author. After time I realized that I no longer needed the reinforcement of book downloads and purchases to be able to call myself a writer. It was never about that anyway. Writing and publishing that book was simply a test of myself. I wanted to be able to see if I could write the book and put myself so plainly out into the world. I did it. Mission accomplished. Confidence built. Fear conquered.
- At the end of my life, what do I want my legacy to be?
I would like my legacy to be one of happiness and joy. I’ve always said that when I pass away that I don’t want a typical funeral. I don’t want a visitation where everyone stands around dressed in head-to-toe black, talking in hushed tones and crying. That is now how I live. Why would I want that when I die?
I want there to be upbeat music (preferably from a playlist that I have put together), and I would like everyone to be able to laugh and share their favorite stories about me, stories of (hopefully) how I made their world a little brighter, happier, brought more sparkle. I want my funeral to be a joyful experience full of color and life, how I try to live my life now. I want people to walk into my visitation and think to themselves, “this is exactly what Heather would have wanted.”
I would love to leave this world having made a positive impact on someone. I want my legacy to be that of happiness and laughter. I would love, after I pass, for someone to see a rainbow and think of me, or see something gaudy and sparkly and think, “I wish Heather were here to see this.” I would love for my legacy to be one of friendship. I don’t want anyone to say that I was the best friend they ever had. I would just like to leave a legacy behind of being the best friend that I could be to others.
I want to leave behind a legacy of a good life lived well with no fears, no regrets, never a missed opportunity to add a little sparkle to someone’s life, and never a missed opportunity to offer someone a hug or to tell them that I love them.
What will your legacy be?